Suddenly Single - Starting up a brand new day

 

So, hey, good morning. I think I'm recording. Um gosh, it's been a whirlwind few months here getting involved with my neighbor friend now I think girlfriend and uh just really enjoying getting to know her and doing different things and just spending time together but also kind of very purposeful time you might say with working around the h well working doing yard work the other day really that's how it all started was helping her out with different things. And then, you know, I really just kindof kind of got into it with I bought this big set of clippers and did a hatchet job on my own bushes, but then went over and worked on hers. Did a kind of much nicer job. And uh we went to this place yesterday, I think, called the light center. And these are the kind of things that she believes in that, you know, healing powers and spiritual things that I haven't really devoted a lot of time or effort to, at least not on a religious level. And I don't know that she's really on a religious level either, but it's justmore of a sense of uh spiritual uh investment maybe. And um so going to this light center It was pretty funny because as soon as I got there, I took Zeke for a walk into the woods and the little sign said the loop trail. Well, I thought it was just going to be like a little loop, but the further I got, the further it went. And uh I realized I was running into, you know, longer time, but I figured, well, she'll take care of herself. She knows how to, you know, she knows the place. She had been there many times with hersister. But anyway, when I came back, they had been waiting for me. She had been waiting for me. She uh we had locked the car so she couldn't get her phone so she didn't get my messages but she wasn't angry or anything and that was the beauty of it. It's like you know I made a mistake but there were no hard feelings that were expressed. We She said maybe we've done enough for today. I said, "No, no, you know, we're going to do the lights." And we went in there and essentially you're sitting in ageodessic dome in a round room and you're listening to very uh kind of massage level type of music, but it was actually very good. And she chose the music and I told her I thought it was really good. It was it was piano, but it wasn't harsh piano. And uh the lights turn on and off different colors. I closed my eyes for most of all of it and I just tried to meditate and uh you know it was it was nice. It was it was enjoyable. And while I was doing that I was thinking about that guy in the book who says he youknow he never really never gets anything out of meditation. He keeps trying just like I do. But one time on a retreat he did have an experience and that's what I was thinking about. And in the meantime, I was also thinking I left Zeke in the car and little things like that. Then we went uh back into town and it started raining, pouring rain, and I just hang on, you know, hung on to the wheel and steered and drove my way through the rain and uh it was a little tense, but not too bad. We got back into town. Wewent to a pizza place, had a great little pizza and uh lasagna. She barely eats anything and I don't eat all that much. But, you know, we're working things out and she's always offering to pay and I'm always saying no, that's okay. But, we really do have to share expenses and I really do have to continue monitoring my expenses and keeping them as low as possible. I'm planning to buy a new car and I I think I'm I know I'm going to go ahead with it um as long as there's notariffs on it and things of that nature. But the reason I'm talking this morning is because uh it is a brand new day. I just did another Wordle. Every morning I do Wordle and I do a video and this morning was a brand new day. And it is a brand new day. I mean, I've just now been through um Tessa's birthday where I sent pictures to everybody, you know, in our circle that that that that matters to and they all responded and, you know, it was a a happy sad day like I was saying to um Alice. It was just, youknow, happy that we had each other, sad that she's gone, sad just I'm a melanch, you know, I get melancholy. I get sad thinking about Tess and the life we had and the love we shared and all that. But I'm happy too. I'm happy because now I've met a new person and I'm really caring for her and caring a lot about her. I know she loves me or cares a lot about me and we're getting to know each other and it is it's a brand new day and it does we don't have the sameparameters or goals like we did when I was younger where you know the goal was to get married the goal was to um first and foremost to have sex and then to you know build on that from there to getting married and building a life together which we did and we did a good job. I did a good job. I'm trying to give myself credit where it's due instead of always putting myself down. Um, you know, I was a good husband, a good father. I worked hard. I did a good job on my, you know, on my career. And nowI'm here, you know, at the end of the road and at the end of the road or this part of the end, you know, it is new. There's new insights. There's new feelings of of caring and loving somebody new. and you know, new adventures and like she said, we're on an adventure. She's a very sweet person. Very, very sweet person. And she we laugh because she'll start a story with like, yeah, and then you know this another time we did this or this happened and then it'd be like I youknow, tell me more or what is there more? No, that was it. you know, so we laugh about it because she's she just doesn't go into very much detail about stuff where I go overboard. But anyway, it is a brand new day and I'm happy and I'm happy that I have my friends, that I have my health so far, that I have enough money to survive, and that I have a very new or a very important new friend in my in my life, who I want to introduce to my friends, who I want to introduce to Lauren, and who I want tospend time with. And that's a great thing. And I didn't know I'd have that, you know, at this age. So anyway, I'm going to sign off for now and uh everyone out there, I wish them happiness and I hope and I wish them a brand new day.