Meditation is Impossible

 

Good morning I well it's even afternoon at this point believe it or not but you know it's just been yet another unexpected kind of incredible day um you could say doing nothing I was going to do a video called or a talk called uh meditation is impossible meditating is impossible uh now why was I thinking that because I've been trying to meditate and I can't keep my focus I mean it's so simple you know and I've read books about it and I've tried it I've done it for years maybe in some way shape orform um you know meditating what is it well focus on your breath focus on your breath in and out very simple you consider what I'm doing right here a form of meditating meditation or prayer and that's the other part of this that kind of came into my mind this morning um after I got a couple of comments on YouTube for things I've already put up there and then you know you get an email and then I took time to respond to that email all of that is to say you know in many ways my prayers have been answered and they've beenanswered many times over many years and uh G Brook had Brooks had a song said some some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers and uh you know that's I think that's the the Beauty and the skill of certain artists uh singing musical artists maybe art artist or whatever but my point being that uh you know some people can say what other people might be thinking or trying to say and they just can't put it they can't do it they can't put it to words but other people can and you know G Brooks is one ofthose people you know in my mind uh Taylor Swift is one of those people and of course the Beatles we can't go without mentioning them and their creative genius but the reason I'm saying that is because we all have a certain level of creativity and you know I'm sitting here doing this this is what I found as far as an outlet a way of doing things and putting it out there is through YouTube videos and you know as I said in my email to somebody I I just don't want to use names sometimes I do and sometimes Idon't but uh you know I'm not looking for fame or Fortune God knows least of all Fame uh you need enough money to get by so I'm not going to sneer at that but why I'm saying all this is because if I were just literally talking to myself and don't publish it or don't put it out there you know then obviously then no one would ever see it or hear it or think it or respond to it so obviously I do want some kind of feedback and when I do get it it makes me feel good it makes me feel wonderful it g gives me a burstof energy and that's why I'm here and uh you know so I was going to I had this thought because I was trying to meditate this morning and every time I sat there and catting my breaths uh within seconds let alone minutes within seconds I would be thinking about something else you know in out oh you know maybe I should take Zeke for a walk now maybe we can go here maybe we can do that you know no matter what I start focusing on with my breath my brain starts taking over with other ideas and other thoughts they're not badideas or thoughts it's that's the other part of this um when I maybe can't fall asleep at night or whatever it's not like I'm sitting there thinking horrible things it's just I'm thinking and so the the reason to meditate for me anyway is kind to to in effect just slow down and stop thinking for a while and so that's why I've kind of been gravitated to it or gravitating to it uh is to try to settle my brain for just a few minutes a day to just meditate just and that's the other thing even as I say these words hey what areyou sitting there wasting your time counting your breath you know you should be doing something I think that's a lot of what goes to in mind is you know somehow meditate in for 5 or 10 or 15 20 minutes who cares would be a waste of time when I know it isn't I know that there's plenty of other time to spend doing the other things you have to do that's why I said though because it's so hard for me to do meditation is impossible or should I say not possible but here's another thought that came to me and that's I'm going toincluded here prayer you're in my thoughts and prayers these are things we say to each other when bad things happen oh my gosh you know I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers or you're in my thoughts and prayers or keep me in your thoughts and prayers or pray for me you know these are things we say to each other and and you know and we mean them we we do mean it and and so I think what I'm why I'm saying this is because uh meditation is also a prayer or prayerful and you know Jesus meditated Jesus wentinto the Wilderness and you know the stories that were recorded about confronting evil and and and dealing with uh you know with uh loss and with scarcity I guess they call it or you know physical suffering he did all of that to be a role model I think for us and how we might be able to better cope with things as they occur in life and we pray pray to Jesus pray to God pray for guidance pray for support I'm going to talk I'm going to say though that like this athlete said recently I don't pray forresults I don't pray for results I I don't pray I forget if to win the tennis match or whatever I pray for support to get through it and that's literally I think was a great answer I think I I think I feel that way I can't say that I'm not praying for results at times you know uh I can't think of anything off hand but but I definitely pray for support and for love of others when I'm feeling you know that I want to reach out or be supportive for them but I don't just pray I mean I try to say something nice or do something you knowthat's also part of it and you know Again part of Jesus teachings and you know why do I bring this up well I don't know when I when I start talking it's just kind of a free flow and uh so whatever comes up comes up um what I'm doing with YouTube and with this is more or less just stream of thought I think it's called to let my mind go let my thoughts go and see what comes out maybe this is a form of meditation certainly does have a kind of calming effect cuz once I get it off my chest and get it out there you know thenit's out there then I don't have to keep saying it or thinking it uh but I am so grateful for the people in my life that have filled my life with you know so much love and support and they'll say the nicest things and I you know pardon me still rejects that or or you know I oh you know a Shucks or whatever but I'm trying to learn not to be too dismissive that way because that that's wrong too you know if somebody says something nice then you know try to just say thank you and I appreciate it without being arrogant about it butwithout being uh too uh what self-deprecating about it as well that's that's another form of selfishness is you know like I'm no good oh oh I don't deserve it well you know then let them decide but right now I'm just very thankful I'm thankful that I can sit here and doodle on my iPad I'm thankful that I'm going to go out and I will take Zeke for a walk and then I might take a little bike ride and I'm thankful for the birds and the bees and the flowers and the trees and the fact that I am videoing those birds and putting ittogether and that someone else said they appreciated enjoyed it that is Meaningful that is meaningful it means a lot to me it makes me feel good it makes me feel worthwhile and it makes me want to do more so you know be careful what you wish for but you know that's what I'm doing thank you thank you thank you and when I pray or when I meditate I think I am going to include prayers prayers of thanks I I'll I'll I'll I'll try to think of my breath and focus on my breath but I'm also going to take time to say how thankful I am forthe big things and and also very much for the little things because everything ends up meaning something and everything every kind word that is said to me that I can say to someone else is somehow flowing energy in the right directions and that's the most we can do so thank you for listening thank you for being there and now I'm going to close out and take little Zeke for a walk