Talk with Lauren
00:00:02 well this is pretty much just an experiment I'm I'm doing my rant and Rave rant ramble on my phone I just talked to Lauren and it was nice it was good it's she's such a sweet girl and you know she's my daughter of course but you know I'm always kind of taken back by how sweet she is and yet she doesn't talk a lot she doesn't she doesn't have stuff like ring on her mind like I tend to have and you know we we just you know it's kind of 20 Questions a little bit I ask her what's happened and what's new and she'll tell me and
00:00:41 then she'll tell me a little more but I don't know how to say it's just not a high energy conversation certainly not topical about politics or anything and I guess that's good because you know the irony of it is you get talking about stuff like that with anybody and it just kind of consumes your energy and and it's not a great it's not a very great way to consume your energy so anyway I'm very thankful and and you know we talked about when when when and how we can get together which they're getting together
00:01:14 with Mike and Julie today and with the Fullers so that side of the family is just simply going to be more connected than we are and it's always been that way and it'll always be that way uh Tess always resisted getting together and I ended up either you know doing part of it or some of it but not as much as I liked but also you know it's just the way you know I know what I'm talking about and it's just now there you know I don't have tests to hold me back but that doesn't mean I can go over there every
00:01:51 weekend and you know it's it's odd that way how to fit in and she was saying how Nolan didn't want to go with the family he wanted to go with his friends and so he's very getting very very connected to his peer group and that's the way kids are that's the way it is and I told her that's how I was when you know I didn't think about hanging out with my parents ever and my parents my father took us on this great vacation to um Mexico and it was a big beautiful experience or or opportunity and I was
00:02:25 so fixated on my friends and what I wanted to do and what I was needing to do I was working out and I was bodybuilding and I was learning to drive and he was going to let me drive when we got out there on the road let me na navigate with him on Route 66 or maybe it was me said all you do is get on Route 66 and there you go I mean I was a smartass and a and a spoiled brat but I didn't really know it at the time and my parents were kind and supportive and so they didn't beat me up or anything but you know here I am now
00:02:59 and I know that that was 16 or 17 so now I'm what 60 years older and um you know still remember those things I still have all my faculties we were talking me and Lauren were just talking about how you know I'm weaker than I was and how you lose some of your strength and then she was saying well she's kind of going through that too a little bit in her mid 40s then she was I said are you're 44 right she said um let me and she had to actually think about 45 or six I'd have to look at her to do math too
00:03:31 1979 to 2025 so I'll do the math later but the point is that we're all getting older and as we get older our physical bodies change and our energy levels change and she is a little bit aware of that but not nearly as much as she will be you know obviously when she's my age and then like for me everything that my aunts and uncles and grandparents and my parents ever said well now it's all coming home to haunt me it's all coming like now it all makes sense you know that they didn't want to necessarily go
00:04:08 across town and go out for dinner you know what do you you know I would like come on let's go we're going to go to Greenville go out for dinner well maybe they don't want to you know and I couldn't understand why now I understand because enough is enough so life changes your points of view change your responsibilities change and you know so all I'm saying is common sense I had a very nice conversation with Cindy last night I will possibly call her again tonight I just really need to you know invest in my friendships in my
00:04:43 adult friendships and and you know I'm very very lucky to have all these people in my life other than my family and I'm lucky to have my family too but you know I'm lucky to have Zeke I'm just playing lucky but you know I have my issues my Hang-Ups my insecurities and they haunt me and sometimes I think if I could just get rid of those I'd have I'd literally just have it made because as someone said there's nothing to fear but fear itself and there's a lot of Truth to that was Roosevelt whoops I just messed it up it was
00:05:22 Roosevelt and it's very true there's nothing to fear but fear itself but that's a big issue and um you know I just I need to let go of that and I do I mean it kind of only hits me here and there and right now I'm doing this and now I'm going to you know take Zeke and go to a little bells park down the road and take a little hike for an hour or two and it's going to be great and I'm thanking God that I'm here in this you know home and in this uh environment in the mountains here living in the mountains this is something Tess and I
00:06:01 chose to do she said I'm not going to spend the rest of my life in Inman South Carolina and I said yeah okay and ironically I mean I didn't fight her on it for sure but I I was like you know that was our comfort zone at the time but gosh knows this has been just remarkable how it's opened up the world for us as far as new friends and friendships and just the whole world of of recreation that I have so we're going to take uh advantage of that and go and I'm going to stop finger painting and thank you for your time and
00:06:37 we'll talk to you later
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