And yes, even more about knowing we’re getting to know Jennifer…. Last night we went out for dinner at West First. This was the combination of a great day that we never or I never anticipated. She asked me to come over and help her get the battery off of our weed whacker well, of course I did that and then I wanted to try the Weedwhacker then when I went out back and started working on the labyrinth, it turned into clearing the labyrinth field of all the grown-up foliage, and some of it was thicker than others, and some of it was too thick for the weedeater too whack down, so I went home and got my shears, came back and proceeded to clear the land. We ended up working together and chopping everything down, gathering it up and then hauling it out to the front yard to me or for me. This was just a great event. It was one more step in getting to know her and her quality and the fun we can have together just doing stuff really doing worthwhile things and I thought to myself what’s more meaningful you know having her over for dinner or giving her some little gift or spending the day working together while it’s easily working together all right so that was one part of the day. The other part was what we had turned down an invitation from John Judy to come over their place for dinner at 5:30 that very day Friday. We just don’t want to drive at night and it took a little courage to say no but I did and it all worked out so Jennifer and I talked about where do we wanna go for dinner and we had a couple ideas but nothing definite I said why don’t we just drive up town and turn right and go down the street and see where we can park while we didn’t find parking until the very end which was right near West First so that’s where we went and we got a butternut squash pizza, which was good. OK, not really as good as uncle Scott and we sat outside we’re not outside but on the deck which right under a heater, which was just just sinfully warm it was just beautiful how warm it felt bracing against the cold anyway the evening goes on. We have great little conversations as usual but the most amazing thing was somehow we talked about when she had come over to call for me when I was sleeping in the middle of the day sometimes I just crash when I don’t sleep at night and I’ll get the most intense sleep. You know during the day well when she came over and knocked on the door, I heard her and I got up, but I said I’m really sorry but I just don’t wanna see you right now because I’m so groggy and I just you know I’m just just waking up from a nap. Well, she said this happened three times and if that’s the case, I guess I’ll go with it. I remember once in particular and I think I remember second time but the real point is she said she said oh I thought or I wondered if you might be an alcoholic and I said oh my God that hit me as being so funny because just so far from the truth, but gosh, we just laughed and laughed, and I thought I guess I could see that you know because you didn’t really know me yet and why would I be disappearing during the middle of the day and like now we’ve got to know ironically, because I hate to dwell on and make a big deal about the fact that I don’t sleep, but you know obviously I crash land or whatever and get enough sleep to be alive all these years but just not at night when I wish I could just put my head down and go to sleep anyway, and she takes naps during the day too, but apparently she doesn’t let that slower down or whatever she doesn’t. She’ll just take a nap anyway bottom line was it was just so funny I never would have suspected this at all. It was the most unexpected thing for her to tell me that she thought maybe I was an alcoholic when she was. This was in the first few months we were going out together and oh my God that’s just so funny so it doesn’t seem as funny when I’m saying it out loud it’s as far it’s just in the moment it was hysterical and we’re sitting there in the restaurant laughing and talking and I end up telling our waiter what we’re laughing about and he could care less but still it was funny Quintin and then I wrote a review to complete our circle and it’s a funny thing because you know Judy responded to my email my Christmas greeting and said I hope we get to see you sometime and the way she said it you know implies or indicates you know, kind of frustration with the fact that we didn’t come for dinner and I understand that and quite honestly, I’ve said this about my friends over the years if I if they never reciprocated on the level that we don’t reciprocate, I would probably drop them, but we test and I were never the host or host whatever we were never the host for dinner and we were the reluctant guests but somehow we survived these 15 years and now going again now with Judy and John she lives in flat rock. I don’t even know how I’m gonna respond. I don’t know if I want to say it again because I’ve told John it a dozen times. I don’t wanna drive at night and I definitely don’t wanna drive down to flat rock at night and there’s a lot of things there are some music events. We’ve gone to the last couple years and now with Jennifer I might want to go to these music events but here again there at night so we might not go now my cheating myself because I’m capable of driving at night I don’t know, but as I said, I’d rather be safe than sorry so I think I’m gonna end this blog post right now. It was all about how funny it was to find out that Jennifer thought I might be I don’t know binge drinking or doing whatever alcoholics do when I was taking a nap in the middle of the day so I just love her. I just I love her and I enjoy loving her and I don’t love everything about her. She is woo woo like we use the divining Ride to decide what restaurant to go to last night but I had fun you know I actually was daydreaming that maybe she would pull it out to. I was almost gonna say why don’t you use your divining rod or whatever she calls it it’s like a little piece of jewelry like a little hanging necklace that you holding in your hand and then it swings and you know one way is yes one way is No and so Schorr enough without me saying that she got up and went and got it and it just was another experience event, learning knowledge of getting to know her, and that’s the whole point getting to know her not what I think of her or what I want of her or what I hope we can do or what we have in common you know but what she really is who she really is as a person and this is a new experience even 46 years of marriage I feel like I’m still kind of getting to no test and I’ve been you know I’ve been emotionally stirred whatever I’ve been sad not really sad but sentimental listening to Christmas carols walking around the house trying to get ready to have Jennifer over and listening to the carpenters and next thing you know I’m I’m period. Not forever but just for the moment and I’m just loving this. Buddhism the wisdom I’m learning the law and permanence and I’m trying to incorporate that in my life, you know a little bit of wisdom a little bit of understanding that nothing is permanent, including life, obviously, but including all the things that happen in life and the fact that this is happening that you know that we met each other that we really do care for each other and I kissed her. I think I kissed her hello last night because I went home after working in the yard and took a shower and came back all fresh and you know with my mouth washed clean and I said let me kiss you hello while my breath is clean and again a good sense of humor just enjoying each other and we haven’t made out yet. We’re not gonna make out. I don’t know that’s the irony of being at this age, a kiss means everything to be holding hands means everything still still somehow I’m afraid not afraid but nervous about having her over you know to decorate the tree and sit and watch Chevy Chase Christmas. I don’t know why and I need to get over that she’s not gonna break. She’s not gonna melt. She’s not gonna get up and storm out because she hates Chevy Chase, but there’s something kind of very easy about being over at her house that we can just sit around and do nothing or as it turned out do yardwork but when she comes over here, I think I’m gonna try to do that. I think I’m gonna try to make her feel useful like she’s sick. Is there anything I can do to help you, I’m gonna take her at her word I want to hell I do wanna have fun or I do want to decorate the tree together so all I wanna do today is get the house cleaned up and then invite her over and maybe I’ll make a spaghetti dinner or something something easy we’re also leaning into vegetarianism a little bit our pizza was vegetarian last night and then we had brown bread pudding. I can make marinara sauce for our angel hair spaghetti and I’ll think about that. I could go get a nice loaf of bread to make garlic bread that might be something to do all right I am going to sign off. I dictated this without recording it without putting it on YouTube as my blog, just putting it into my actual blog and it’s a pretty cool event or pretty cool method.